It's been a long time

It's been so long since I have updated my blog. The last 9 months have been... well, I honestly don't know the right word for it. I have been having some ongoing health issues and had to cut out a lot of non-essentials in my life (including this blog). In September I had my tonsils out. Less than a week later I ended up in the hospital with pneumonia. Over the following months I battled with candidiasis, gastritis & duodenitis, kidney infections & stones, and bronchitis. I've had 2 hospital stays and many visits to the ER, urgent care & doctors’ offices. I've been poked and prodded and undergone almost every test you can think of. I admit I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm sure the Lord is trying to teach me something, but obviously I'm stubborn and not learning well. I quit my job and this past Monday was my last day. As I said before, I have been cutting a lot of non-essentials out of my life, but I admit it has been difficult because I am most happy when I am busy and my life is full of people and purpose. I have spent a lot of time in quiet reflection of my life and realize that I am a perfectionist who’s more than a little OCD and who definitely does not like feeling out of control of my life. I recognize I need to have more faith and trust in God and his will for me. But it is hard to let go. I'm learning, but slowly.

Right now, more than anything else I am trying to recognize all the blessings in my life. My greatest blessings being my boys. My husband has been a huge support to me. He is my rock (enough said). Cameron, my 16-year-old, constantly amazes me as well. He has been such a huge help to me, many days taking on the role of mom (when Rob’s at work), because I was too sick to get out of bed. In addition to that he played football in the fall and soccer in the spring, took 4 college classes this year, and got the award for the top sophomore male student at his high school.

As for Dalin, he has had a great year in Kindergarten and has made such amazing progress. There are many days when I look at him in wonder and know that his autism does not define him nor limit his amazing spirit. He is so strong and determined to overcome his struggles & limitations and he inspires me to do the same.

I am looking forward to a summer spending time with my kids. Hopefully the warm weather will bring renewed strength and good health.