Just some thoughts

Last night was a busy night. I am up for re-election for school board. I keep wondering why I am running again when it takes up so much of my time. But I feel that I am making a difference in the lives of my kids (and my friends’ kids) and so I guess I am signing up for another 4 years. Anyways, last night a forum was held for all the candidates. People from the community had the opportunity to come and ask questions. This morning I grabbed my small town newspaper to read while eating breakfast, and saw my own face staring back at me. There it was -- my picture on the front page. I was in the middle of talking and so my mouth was open and my hands were "speaking" as well. I think I look kinda funny, but oh well. I've never been very photogenic.

After the forum the High School had their Fall Choir Concert. Cameron, my oldest, is in Jazzco (performing madrigal choir) and Symphonic Choir. They did a great job! I was definitely a proud mom -- video-taped all of Cam's performances. He is a very talented and well-rounded teenager. I wish I could take all the credit, but really most goes to him. He is just a good kid with a good soul, and I was lucky to get him. He turns 15 in a couple weeks and will be getting his learners permit. I keep wondering where the time goes. I still have vivid memories of high school and feel like it hasn't been that long since I left. I remember my mom telling me the same thing once when I was in high school. It was one of the few times I recall thinking that my mom was foolish. I use to think I knew it all. Now I realize we are all fools trying to do our best to figure life out.

So I spoke with a good friend tonight who has a son who is having some incontinence (pooping) issues. She actually asked me if I had ever experienced that with any of my boys (she obviously hasn't read my blog!) We had a good chat. It's always good to talk to those who are having (or have had) the same experiences as you. It helps to feel not so alone. I truly believe there is so much that we don't talk about as women because we are such private people, and feel that there is shame that comes with the realization that we are not perfect parents and our kids are not perfect either. Why that is, I am not sure. Because I really believe that we all are more alike than we realize and that if we compared experiences that we would recognize that even though our struggles may be different we are all hoping for the same outcome, to be a good person/parent and to raise successful & happy kids. It really has been very freeing for me to talk out my feelings in my blog, and I am grateful that I decided to do this.